// won't you breathe with me? //
Opening her mouth to answer, she faltered. Closed it again, because he deserved more than a hastily blurted out response based on fear, worry and lacking self-esteem. Taking up the spoon once more she pushed pieces of vegetable around in the broth, thinking back to the incident and its aftermath.
"I would hope so," Maea said after a while. "Certainly I learned that I am stubborn, and that my views on what is right and necessary seem more extreme than others. I don't compromise easily. I have a flawed perception of risk and reward... Afterwards, several people I spoke to accused me of trying to become a martyr for a hopeless cause... and I don't really understand why that would be an insult. But... yes, I hope I learned the perils of speaking without anything to back my words with. That day only one of the leaders present rose to support me, and I realize now that I was relying on them to mop up any ensuing mess. That is not ever going to happen again."
Her mouth drooped in a determined expression, reflecting the stubborn nature she had claimed; at least she was aware of it. No surprise there.
"I would hope so," Maea said after a while. "Certainly I learned that I am stubborn, and that my views on what is right and necessary seem more extreme than others. I don't compromise easily. I have a flawed perception of risk and reward... Afterwards, several people I spoke to accused me of trying to become a martyr for a hopeless cause... and I don't really understand why that would be an insult. But... yes, I hope I learned the perils of speaking without anything to back my words with. That day only one of the leaders present rose to support me, and I realize now that I was relying on them to mop up any ensuing mess. That is not ever going to happen again."
Her mouth drooped in a determined expression, reflecting the stubborn nature she had claimed; at least she was aware of it. No surprise there.
Maea
// won't you take me to your heart? //
