He would appreciate Sah's care and protectiveness more later, when his emotions were a little less raw and he was a little more sober. For now, he just let the comfort of a trusted friend push back against the shadows that lingered in the wake of Vox's unwelcome visit and the half-repressed memories that had been dragged back into the light. And while Sah's words weren't new - Alys had said the same - they were still good to hear. Maybe not so much now, but as time passed he would have them to look back on. It was just--
"I know it wasn't," he admitted, voice rough. "I know that. I dunno how close she was t'dyin' from whatever th'void monster had already done t'her. But she's dead now because I lashed out without lookin'. Because I didn't wait two seconds t'make sure o' my target." She wasn't the first person he'd killed, but she'd been the first who hadn't deserved it. The first one who hadn't attacked him first.
And there had been no one to bring her back and undo what he had done.
He rubbed roughly at his nose again, and finally lifted his head to meet his friend's gaze, at least briefly. "But... thanks, Sah. For... bein' here. An' listenin'."
"I know it wasn't," he admitted, voice rough. "I know that. I dunno how close she was t'dyin' from whatever th'void monster had already done t'her. But she's dead now because I lashed out without lookin'. Because I didn't wait two seconds t'make sure o' my target." She wasn't the first person he'd killed, but she'd been the first who hadn't deserved it. The first one who hadn't attacked him first.
And there had been no one to bring her back and undo what he had done.
He rubbed roughly at his nose again, and finally lifted his head to meet his friend's gaze, at least briefly. "But... thanks, Sah. For... bein' here. An' listenin'."
