Maea
And I hope that you don't suffer
But take the pain
But take the pain
"Nothing, really." Feeling his gaze on her, Maea endured the silence for a while, then let her gaze drop to meet Hadama's with a barely audible sigh. "Honestly. Nothing has happened, and that's the heart of the problem. I was reminded recently of how poor my rapport is with the leaders of basically all the regions are, and of my lack of strength to solve problems should they arise." Hadama might not consider her ill-favored, but he would be in the minority. "I don't know how to get stronger, and I don't know how to mend fences with people who won't talk to me. That's all. I suppose I'm just... frustrated."
Toying with the napkin, her restless fingers quickly undid the elegant folds. "Feels like I've fallen behind," she admitted, more quietly this time. "All the time I spent on my own emotional fireworks is time people around me used to improve physically, in weapons and abilities and experience. And the harder I strive to improve and be useful, the less I actually accomplish. Yet the idea of doing nothing, or just the bare minimum... It's suffocating." She had to look no further than across the table for a prime example. When they first mer, she and Hadama had been of similar strength, equal ability – yet he was king and demigod while she... Maea shook her head, warring with a black jealousy that was none of his fault and had no place at the table.
Toying with the napkin, her restless fingers quickly undid the elegant folds. "Feels like I've fallen behind," she admitted, more quietly this time. "All the time I spent on my own emotional fireworks is time people around me used to improve physically, in weapons and abilities and experience. And the harder I strive to improve and be useful, the less I actually accomplish. Yet the idea of doing nothing, or just the bare minimum... It's suffocating." She had to look no further than across the table for a prime example. When they first mer, she and Hadama had been of similar strength, equal ability – yet he was king and demigod while she... Maea shook her head, warring with a black jealousy that was none of his fault and had no place at the table.
Hope if everybody runs
You choose to stay
You choose to stay
