like lipstick traces on pillowcases

Everyone wants to see heaven
But no one wants to say goodbye

Soh knew that it would hurt. Gods, did she know, because hadn't she been in Flora's shoes once before? Except it wasn't the same thing, not at all. Flora had already rejected Koa by the time she told Soh about him; Soh was just starting out.

It would have been him, Flora had whispered once, lost and broken and yet so sure she'd made the right decision. And Koa had loved her, once, and now...

Now Jack was gone, and Flora was reeling, and instead of trying to help her pick up the pieces, Soh was trying to start something with her ex-boyfriend.

She really was a terrible friend.

Soh reached out to lace her fingers with Flora's, because even though she was trying to be happy for her, Soh could see the brittleness underneath. "Thank you," she whispered. "I just - I didn't mean for this to happen, but I..." She trailed off, fully aware of how stupid it sounded. "Gods, that's so dumb. I just don't want to lose you, Flora. You're my best friend, and I don't know how to do this." Flora. Koa. Jude. Everything was so gods-damned complicated all the time. Was it so bad to want things to be easy, just this once?

Everyone wants to see heaven
But no one wants to die

Sohalia