I shouldn't laugh, but I know I'm a failure in your eyes
Letting his eyes close as if Remi's embrace is all the permission he needs to not feel as if he's holding up the world any more, if the rest of his life could just be this, gods but it would be enough and then some. And even that realisation has a fresh oilslick of guilt sloshing through him, the Knight offering an apologetic wince for the way he knows his husband will feel it. "We are some of the best, though. The most experienced," he says softly, the words raw and lacking in anything like pride - just exhausted understanding.
At the suggestion he ask Vi take it all away, Ronin scoffs out a humourless laugh. "And then what?" he mutters. "I'm the man who had all this power at his fingertips, and I gave it up because of what? Because it was too hard? Hardly White Knight behaviour, as our daughter would say." His brows flinch into a frown at the memory. "Talking to her... I felt like a villain. Small and useless, like everything I said was another failure to add to a long list." Straightening up a little at last, he glances up at Remi.
"And it was all true. That was the worst part."
At the suggestion he ask Vi take it all away, Ronin scoffs out a humourless laugh. "And then what?" he mutters. "I'm the man who had all this power at his fingertips, and I gave it up because of what? Because it was too hard? Hardly White Knight behaviour, as our daughter would say." His brows flinch into a frown at the memory. "Talking to her... I felt like a villain. Small and useless, like everything I said was another failure to add to a long list." Straightening up a little at last, he glances up at Remi.
"And it was all true. That was the worst part."
RONIN
