Zavien
"Well, I guess I'll just have to see how things go." Chuckling, Zavien smiles at Thorn with a more relaxed posture than he'd had when they started. "I'll either be thanking you or drinking very heavily in your bar, but I think you'll know the signs." Hopefully, everything will go smoothly with the focus on communication, and he'll only have good news for the courtesan; his beaming smile will probably give him away before any of his words.
With the matter of no children out of the way, Thorn's question surprises him. He can't help the grin that surfaces, bright and eager as he nods his head. Shrugging his shoulders, he adds, "I mean, I feel a little late to the party. I'm almost thirty and never had sex." Zavien knows it's an anomaly amongst men, especially the Dragoons who all poke fun at him, and he easily laughs at himself. "Even though I'm such a physical person, the moment's just never felt... right." And as more and more time passed, it felt important that he not give it up for the wrong reason - just to benefit him or his curiosity. It wasn't like woman hadn't made advances on him, yet it didn't feel like the right time.
"Part of it was because I spent so much time training, but I also wanted it to be with someone special. Then I met Lena, and it's hard not to think of her that way, but we were also friends first, and I never wanted her to feel like sex was the only reason I liked her..." He'd never wanted her to think it was a fling or physical attraction that had drawn him to her.
He hangs his head as he looks to his hands. "But it's been a year now, and I think it's hitting the point where she thinks I'm not attracted to her that way because I've waited so long. I just look like an idiot who doesn't want to have sex with a gorgeous woman." Zavien groans, rubbing a hand over his forehead like he could remove the label he's placed on himself. It just makes the pressure that much worse, like he has something to prove.
With the matter of no children out of the way, Thorn's question surprises him. He can't help the grin that surfaces, bright and eager as he nods his head. Shrugging his shoulders, he adds, "I mean, I feel a little late to the party. I'm almost thirty and never had sex." Zavien knows it's an anomaly amongst men, especially the Dragoons who all poke fun at him, and he easily laughs at himself. "Even though I'm such a physical person, the moment's just never felt... right." And as more and more time passed, it felt important that he not give it up for the wrong reason - just to benefit him or his curiosity. It wasn't like woman hadn't made advances on him, yet it didn't feel like the right time.
"Part of it was because I spent so much time training, but I also wanted it to be with someone special. Then I met Lena, and it's hard not to think of her that way, but we were also friends first, and I never wanted her to feel like sex was the only reason I liked her..." He'd never wanted her to think it was a fling or physical attraction that had drawn him to her.
He hangs his head as he looks to his hands. "But it's been a year now, and I think it's hitting the point where she thinks I'm not attracted to her that way because I've waited so long. I just look like an idiot who doesn't want to have sex with a gorgeous woman." Zavien groans, rubbing a hand over his forehead like he could remove the label he's placed on himself. It just makes the pressure that much worse, like he has something to prove.
You don't have to prove anyone wrong.
You just have to prove yourself right.
You just have to prove yourself right.
