Kaisel tumbles into the grapple, his head caught in Koa's bear hug like a much-beloved toy. A hefty one, especially as he lets more of the weight fall on his cousin, causing Koa to grunt and take a step back. "You're heavier than you used to be," he mutters playfully, the words punctuated by the mercifully weak blows Kai lands on his side. Everything is heavier than it used to be: life, relationships, the state of the world, all of it coats them like a damp blanket, smothering and suffocating and always there. But for a minute he can ignore it, force his head above the covers and give them both a chance to breathe.
Even if it means exposing his insecurities and fuck-ups to his cousin, who doesn't seem inclined to leave well enough alone.
"Fuck, man, I dunno." Releasing Kai abruptly, Koa steps back and to the right, hoping the suddenness will leave the younger Dragoon unbalanced. He side-steps, coming in with a jab at what may or may not be Kai's exposed left side. "We hooked up, I guess, but didn't really talk about it? It's all just so-- urgh." Koa groans, rubbing his hand over his face. "I really like Soh, and in any other situation I could totally see a future there, but, like... how am I supposed to be a good boyfriend to someone when I'm still in love with her best friend?" Which isn't something Koa'd managed to admit yet, aloud or to himself.
Even if it means exposing his insecurities and fuck-ups to his cousin, who doesn't seem inclined to leave well enough alone.
"Fuck, man, I dunno." Releasing Kai abruptly, Koa steps back and to the right, hoping the suddenness will leave the younger Dragoon unbalanced. He side-steps, coming in with a jab at what may or may not be Kai's exposed left side. "We hooked up, I guess, but didn't really talk about it? It's all just so-- urgh." Koa groans, rubbing his hand over his face. "I really like Soh, and in any other situation I could totally see a future there, but, like... how am I supposed to be a good boyfriend to someone when I'm still in love with her best friend?" Which isn't something Koa'd managed to admit yet, aloud or to himself.
There'll always be a few things, maybe several things
That you're gonna find really difficult to forgive
That you're gonna find really difficult to forgive
