knowing I can't turn the rain into sun any more
Soh might not have had to know what to do with her feelings, but she still had to feel them. Still, as hard as it was, she knew that Kaisel was right. She was neither dead nor dying, no matter how it felt, and there would be nothing more insulting to Tarak's memory than to fail him now. Because he had believed in her. He'd stayed by her side through everything, even when she wasn't sure she deserved it. And that meant something.
So she rallied, pulling the walls of ice around her heart back into place, freezing over all the hard feelings that she didn't want to deal with just now, tucking them away behind layers of frigid glass that separated them from her. "Don't worry, Kai," Soh said, forcing a sad smile. "I'll survive. We'll get Stormbreak back on track, and everything will be fine." Because it had to be - to honor Tarak, if nothing else, but also because Soh didn't know what to do if it wasn't. If she failed her city again... "It's just... going to hurt. For a long time. But, that's what we do, right? Keep going for the ones we love, who can't be there to keep going with us."
Squeezing Kaisel's hand, Soh withdrew hers. "Anyway," she said, switching the subject of the conversation in an effort to keep her emotions in that little icebox in the back of her mind. "Stormbreak's going to be fine. The dragon's gone. What's left of the Tower is a disaster zone, so we have our work cut out for us, but that's fixable." Things, after all - even things as formidable as the Tower - could be replaced.
So she rallied, pulling the walls of ice around her heart back into place, freezing over all the hard feelings that she didn't want to deal with just now, tucking them away behind layers of frigid glass that separated them from her. "Don't worry, Kai," Soh said, forcing a sad smile. "I'll survive. We'll get Stormbreak back on track, and everything will be fine." Because it had to be - to honor Tarak, if nothing else, but also because Soh didn't know what to do if it wasn't. If she failed her city again... "It's just... going to hurt. For a long time. But, that's what we do, right? Keep going for the ones we love, who can't be there to keep going with us."
Squeezing Kaisel's hand, Soh withdrew hers. "Anyway," she said, switching the subject of the conversation in an effort to keep her emotions in that little icebox in the back of her mind. "Stormbreak's going to be fine. The dragon's gone. What's left of the Tower is a disaster zone, so we have our work cut out for us, but that's fixable." Things, after all - even things as formidable as the Tower - could be replaced.
Sohalia
Minor powerplay allowed without permission.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
