knowing I can't turn the rain into sun any more
It wasn't that Kaisel had failed - not exactly. It was more that there was only so much that could be offered to someone drowning in the depths of their own grief. That the only way to move forward was to pack it all up into a neat little package that she could shove into the back of her mind and forget, like that shoebox of old letters in the back of the closet. Someday, maybe she'd pull them out to look at it all, to appreciate them for what they were. But right now, today, when it was all she could do to keep breathing? Today, she needed it all to just go away.
"I know," she told Kaisel, and there was truth in it. She wasn't alone, however much she might think she deserved to be. How many people that she cared about had to die before she wound up so isolated that she couldn't recover? But however much her friends and loved ones might provide the potential for life-threatening wounds to her psyche, they were also her strength, and even if they might be better off without her bad luck, she couldn't bring herself to let them go.
So she let the topic slip away, because it was easier to focus on something - anything - else.
Accepting the draft of the letter, Soh skimmed over it quickly. It felt a little like betrayal, to be helping Kai with this. It left a bad taste in her mouth, not tossing the letter in the nearest trash can, shaking Kai by the shoulders, and telling him to go find Flora. But both he and she had made their choices, and no matter what Soh thought of that, she owed it to them both to respect those decisions. "This is really sweet, Kai," she said after reading, passing the letter back over to the young man across from her. "I don't know Caly well, but I think anyone would like that."
"I know," she told Kaisel, and there was truth in it. She wasn't alone, however much she might think she deserved to be. How many people that she cared about had to die before she wound up so isolated that she couldn't recover? But however much her friends and loved ones might provide the potential for life-threatening wounds to her psyche, they were also her strength, and even if they might be better off without her bad luck, she couldn't bring herself to let them go.
So she let the topic slip away, because it was easier to focus on something - anything - else.
Accepting the draft of the letter, Soh skimmed over it quickly. It felt a little like betrayal, to be helping Kai with this. It left a bad taste in her mouth, not tossing the letter in the nearest trash can, shaking Kai by the shoulders, and telling him to go find Flora. But both he and she had made their choices, and no matter what Soh thought of that, she owed it to them both to respect those decisions. "This is really sweet, Kai," she said after reading, passing the letter back over to the young man across from her. "I don't know Caly well, but I think anyone would like that."
Sohalia
Minor powerplay allowed without permission.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
