// ships are launching from my chest
some have names but most do not //
some have names but most do not //
“Oh yeah.” Sunjata says with a soft laugh, humorless, in the way that he knows because he’s been there before, right where Kaisel was. He’d been in the space where he’d thought all Safrin wanted was the best for him, until it turned out she’d only ever be happy with what was best for her. “That’s how she does it, though. It’s a manipulation. She’ll give you all kind of shiny trinkets so long as you think about her and only her. Or her kids, I guess.” He pauses, withdrawing another fruit to place amongst the shrine before he plays with the water again, shifting it this way and that in a gentle swell as he glances over to Kaisel with a raised scarred brow.
Not the it was a terrible thing, in a way, to be protective of your kid. But Safrin always had a habit of taking what was usually a 5 and dialing it to a 10. He can remember from when Kamaria was a child, the things Safrin had told him to manipulate her away from him and Nate, and it’s those thoughts that have him hesitating for a moment before he shakes himself out of it, catching onto Kai’s question with a soft smile.
“Nah. It was the happiest I’d ever been.” He admits quietly, over the rush of the moat he’s playing with. “We went from crisis after crisis to finally having a calm, quiet life. He had a garden, we had a couple of cats. Our companions, before mine died.” He shrugs a little before he shakes himself out of the nostalgia — because reality had a much more difficult grip on him than the memories of the past had.
Such that when Kaisel’s question reaches him, Sunjata takes a few moments to try and gather his thoughts — after all, he’d always been shitty with words. “I don’t really think that you can be enough for one person, let alone two, and have it be healthy?” He starts off, jaw working slightly before he’s dropping forward from where he’s crouched, knees planting in the edge of the moat’s bend and wicking up water quickly. “You can probably be mostly enough for them, but you can’t give all of yourself away to people just to keep them happy. That just gets you hurt when it doesn’t work out and you’re left empty because you’ve lost yourself along the way.”
Not the it was a terrible thing, in a way, to be protective of your kid. But Safrin always had a habit of taking what was usually a 5 and dialing it to a 10. He can remember from when Kamaria was a child, the things Safrin had told him to manipulate her away from him and Nate, and it’s those thoughts that have him hesitating for a moment before he shakes himself out of it, catching onto Kai’s question with a soft smile.
“Nah. It was the happiest I’d ever been.” He admits quietly, over the rush of the moat he’s playing with. “We went from crisis after crisis to finally having a calm, quiet life. He had a garden, we had a couple of cats. Our companions, before mine died.” He shrugs a little before he shakes himself out of the nostalgia — because reality had a much more difficult grip on him than the memories of the past had.
Such that when Kaisel’s question reaches him, Sunjata takes a few moments to try and gather his thoughts — after all, he’d always been shitty with words. “I don’t really think that you can be enough for one person, let alone two, and have it be healthy?” He starts off, jaw working slightly before he’s dropping forward from where he’s crouched, knees planting in the edge of the moat’s bend and wicking up water quickly. “You can probably be mostly enough for them, but you can’t give all of yourself away to people just to keep them happy. That just gets you hurt when it doesn’t work out and you’re left empty because you’ve lost yourself along the way.”
the flood
// if you find one, please,
let me know what piece i've lost //
let me know what piece i've lost //
Feel free to use magic/force on Sunjata, without killing him <3
Sunjata speaks with an Australian accent and has a passive magic that makes him produce a subtle scent that matches exactly to whatever those around him most desire him to smell like.
