Kalt
let the rain wash away
Her tears gradually slow with her breathing, but she doesn’t let go, so neither do I. I keep holding her, keep gently rubbing her back, whatever she needs from me.
“I couldn’t hold on,” she starts, her voice still muffled against my shoulder. Hold on to what? “I couldn’t pull you up.” My jaw clenches, my eyes roll shut.
I vividly remember what happened. It was all so blindingly fast, but every detail of every moment is painfully ingrained in my memory. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to forget Ashe’s and Theea’s cries, physically feeling the ground weakening underneath my grip, the agonizing crack of two bones.
“Hey…look at me…”
I want to keep her against me, but this is important.
I wipe the tears from her cheeks, pushing her hair away from her face with a small smile. “You were a child. It would’ve been impossible for your mother to pull me up. It would’ve been almost impossible even for someone my size to do it. Nothing that happened that day is at all your fault.”
My gut is twisted in knots, knowing that she’s been carrying this since it happened. I don’t know if it’s something she shared with Ashe or not, but it doesn’t matter because it’s clearly a weight she’s still holding onto.
“I promise I’m not going anywhere. You’ll be entirely sick of me before I ever leave you again, yeah?” I smirk, gently flicking the upturn of her nose.
“I couldn’t hold on,” she starts, her voice still muffled against my shoulder. Hold on to what? “I couldn’t pull you up.” My jaw clenches, my eyes roll shut.
I vividly remember what happened. It was all so blindingly fast, but every detail of every moment is painfully ingrained in my memory. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to forget Ashe’s and Theea’s cries, physically feeling the ground weakening underneath my grip, the agonizing crack of two bones.
“Hey…look at me…”
I want to keep her against me, but this is important.
I wipe the tears from her cheeks, pushing her hair away from her face with a small smile. “You were a child. It would’ve been impossible for your mother to pull me up. It would’ve been almost impossible even for someone my size to do it. Nothing that happened that day is at all your fault.”
My gut is twisted in knots, knowing that she’s been carrying this since it happened. I don’t know if it’s something she shared with Ashe or not, but it doesn’t matter because it’s clearly a weight she’s still holding onto.
“I promise I’m not going anywhere. You’ll be entirely sick of me before I ever leave you again, yeah?” I smirk, gently flicking the upturn of her nose.
all the pain of yesterday
