Theea
you lose yourself when the wind flows through your hair
you taste freedom as you fill your lungs with air
you taste freedom as you fill your lungs with air
I blink at her, the pinecone nearly slipping through my fingers as I catch it. I stare at it, turning it over in my hands, but mostly just to give myself something to look at while my thoughts scramble.
I’ve never asked myself questions like that before. Not with any real honesty, anyway.
“I… don’t know.” The words feel small in my mouth. I glance up, then back down again. “I guess I’ve always just assumed I had to do something. That I had to earn it, somehow. Like existing isn’t enough unless I can prove I deserved the chance Frey gave me.”
I let out a breath, shaking my head. “If smiling was all I could ever do… I don’t know what that would mean. I never thought about it like that. Maybe it wouldn’t be useless, maybe it would be. I just—” I shrug, helpless, the words tangling up before they even leave me. “I don’t know. If smiles are all I have, do I just give up on doing something real with my life?”
The admission knots in my stomach, but it’s the truth. For once, I can’t talk my way around it.
”How do I help someone with just a smile, you know?”
I’ve never asked myself questions like that before. Not with any real honesty, anyway.
“I… don’t know.” The words feel small in my mouth. I glance up, then back down again. “I guess I’ve always just assumed I had to do something. That I had to earn it, somehow. Like existing isn’t enough unless I can prove I deserved the chance Frey gave me.”
I let out a breath, shaking my head. “If smiling was all I could ever do… I don’t know what that would mean. I never thought about it like that. Maybe it wouldn’t be useless, maybe it would be. I just—” I shrug, helpless, the words tangling up before they even leave me. “I don’t know. If smiles are all I have, do I just give up on doing something real with my life?”
The admission knots in my stomach, but it’s the truth. For once, I can’t talk my way around it.
”How do I help someone with just a smile, you know?”
the time has stopped, your mind has set sail
the road is home, the stars will light the trail
the road is home, the stars will light the trail
