Honey wherever you go, I know
Each touch she offers is something he absorbs, grabbing hold of it to make it last longer, run deeper, stockpiling affection like a doomsday prepper certain of Armageddon. Hasn't it always been so, with her? The shadows of past loves lingering on the fringes of everything golden, ghosts that haunt even in daylight. Even now, with all the salt lines from their lashes, the ghouls are pressing in, cold and cruel— the shower had washed more than sand away.
What she says, it all makes sense, but it's not about her and what she feels, not in this instance. "FuuucK." The word bites out unusually harsh, punctuated with a drag of frustration. His hand abandons her leg, pincering either side of the bridge if his nose as his eyes scrunch shut. He heaves out a long, rolling sigh, the sound of someone suffering through their choices. "I really thought he'd chosen her..." The back of his hand flops over his forehead, obscuring his view as his eyes open and burrow between his fingers into the ceiling, adrift with guilt.
Flora might be irritated with Koa, and Kaisel doesn't blame her after hearing it all laid out like that, but damnit he understands why his cousin is making every bad choice. "He didn't want to commit to Sohalia, not if he couldn't do it fully, so he's been trying to sort through it to make sure he doesn't half ass anything with her." So instead he just full assholed himself, it'd seem. "Maybe you've moved on, but he hasn't." Koa's searching for a way to undo a first love, but just like freezing time or traveling back to the past, some things are beyond the means of men. The dead could be revived easier than Flora could be lifted from a man's heart.
It did not help that his home came under threat, that Noe shattered in order to begin healing. For all the loss that runs rampant in Caido, Koa does not handle it well, not when it's leveled at the things he holds dear. He loves his family so much that he'll smother them with it, and himself too if need be.
Somehow, each of them has tried their best not to hurt each other, but their best simply hadn't been enough. He really thought Koa had found a way to give all the rest of himself to Soh, to love her despite it not being with every bit of his heart in the end. You don't get to take back the little pieces of yourself that you give away when you love someone, but if you're lucky, someone else loves you enough to fill all the missing parts. "This is so much worse than I thought," Kaisel groans into the fold of his arm as he turns into his elbow, certain his cousin might never forgive him now. Whether he should or shouldn't isn't the issue. Emotions, especially the ones threaded with love, do not subscribe to reality.
What she says, it all makes sense, but it's not about her and what she feels, not in this instance. "FuuucK." The word bites out unusually harsh, punctuated with a drag of frustration. His hand abandons her leg, pincering either side of the bridge if his nose as his eyes scrunch shut. He heaves out a long, rolling sigh, the sound of someone suffering through their choices. "I really thought he'd chosen her..." The back of his hand flops over his forehead, obscuring his view as his eyes open and burrow between his fingers into the ceiling, adrift with guilt.
Flora might be irritated with Koa, and Kaisel doesn't blame her after hearing it all laid out like that, but damnit he understands why his cousin is making every bad choice. "He didn't want to commit to Sohalia, not if he couldn't do it fully, so he's been trying to sort through it to make sure he doesn't half ass anything with her." So instead he just full assholed himself, it'd seem. "Maybe you've moved on, but he hasn't." Koa's searching for a way to undo a first love, but just like freezing time or traveling back to the past, some things are beyond the means of men. The dead could be revived easier than Flora could be lifted from a man's heart.
It did not help that his home came under threat, that Noe shattered in order to begin healing. For all the loss that runs rampant in Caido, Koa does not handle it well, not when it's leveled at the things he holds dear. He loves his family so much that he'll smother them with it, and himself too if need be.
Somehow, each of them has tried their best not to hurt each other, but their best simply hadn't been enough. He really thought Koa had found a way to give all the rest of himself to Soh, to love her despite it not being with every bit of his heart in the end. You don't get to take back the little pieces of yourself that you give away when you love someone, but if you're lucky, someone else loves you enough to fill all the missing parts. "This is so much worse than I thought," Kaisel groans into the fold of his arm as he turns into his elbow, certain his cousin might never forgive him now. Whether he should or shouldn't isn't the issue. Emotions, especially the ones threaded with love, do not subscribe to reality.
Kaisel
I'd give up half of forever, just to be with you
Wearing a watery blue, faded and stretched-out sparkling hair tie on his left wrist
