Breathe in all the colors
Never dream in black and white
Never dream in black and white
To live or to survive - Soh wasn't sure she knew the distinction anymore. For so long now, she had been in a mode of reaction, forever destined, it seemed, to be on the back foot. But with peace in Caido and Stormbreak restored, it left her free to ponder the difference once more. And what she found, if she thought about it for too long, was that survival wasn't the same as living, and she'd been doing a whole lot more of the former than the latter.
Theea's gratitude was unexpected, and Soh glanced quickly over at her friend, smiling as the other woman nudged her shoulder. Leaning into the contact, the Luminary smiled. "That's a good way to look at it, I think," she said. "Maybe that's what I need to focus on now, instead of everything that's been lost." Stormbreak, Tarak, even her once-golden spirit - there was so much to grieve and to mourn. But maybe she should try to look beyond that and be grateful for all that she did have. Maybe that would be the thing that brought her peace.
The next question caught her a little by surprise, and she pulled her knees into her chest, wrapping her arms loosely around her calves, almost as though to protect herself against the emotion that always came with thoughts of home. "I... don't know," she said, and there was truth in it, laid bare for Theea to see. "I don't remember - did I tell you about losing Stormbreak? The Family kidnapped me when they first arrived, and when I escaped, I was in the Wilds. The Void made me sick, somehow - not infected, but like it had sapped all of my strength. And by the time I recovered, so much time had passed, and Stormbreak was firmly in Dahlia's hands.
"Anyway, ever since then I've been trying to figure out how to get Stormbreak back. And I thought I was going to do it, but then we went to cleanse the region, and we fought a Void dragon, and it... killed my companion." Her fingers tightened against her arms where they wrapped around her legs. "And after that, I just... couldn't breathe, let alone lead. Even now, when I'm in Stormbreak, I'm... it's just not the same. Zavien's leading now, and I'm on his council, but... I spend as much time away as I reasonably can."
It was startling, to say it aloud: that home had become something to run from rather than to. And maybe that meant that it shouldn't be home at all, but sometimes it felt like all she had, and she wasn't quite ready to give it up just yet.
fin
Theea's gratitude was unexpected, and Soh glanced quickly over at her friend, smiling as the other woman nudged her shoulder. Leaning into the contact, the Luminary smiled. "That's a good way to look at it, I think," she said. "Maybe that's what I need to focus on now, instead of everything that's been lost." Stormbreak, Tarak, even her once-golden spirit - there was so much to grieve and to mourn. But maybe she should try to look beyond that and be grateful for all that she did have. Maybe that would be the thing that brought her peace.
The next question caught her a little by surprise, and she pulled her knees into her chest, wrapping her arms loosely around her calves, almost as though to protect herself against the emotion that always came with thoughts of home. "I... don't know," she said, and there was truth in it, laid bare for Theea to see. "I don't remember - did I tell you about losing Stormbreak? The Family kidnapped me when they first arrived, and when I escaped, I was in the Wilds. The Void made me sick, somehow - not infected, but like it had sapped all of my strength. And by the time I recovered, so much time had passed, and Stormbreak was firmly in Dahlia's hands.
"Anyway, ever since then I've been trying to figure out how to get Stormbreak back. And I thought I was going to do it, but then we went to cleanse the region, and we fought a Void dragon, and it... killed my companion." Her fingers tightened against her arms where they wrapped around her legs. "And after that, I just... couldn't breathe, let alone lead. Even now, when I'm in Stormbreak, I'm... it's just not the same. Zavien's leading now, and I'm on his council, but... I spend as much time away as I reasonably can."
It was startling, to say it aloud: that home had become something to run from rather than to. And maybe that meant that it shouldn't be home at all, but sometimes it felt like all she had, and she wasn't quite ready to give it up just yet.
fin
Check my spirit in the mirror
Starry eyed tonight
Starry eyed tonight
Sohalia
Minor powerplay allowed without permission.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
