always taking up too much space or time

And I feel like my castle's crumbling down
And I watch all my bridges burn to the ground

Soh could have laughed at the sentiment that it's okay not to be okay. That she was allowed to feel her feelings, the anger and the pain and the guilt and the shame and all the other things that she's left buried for far too long. It's as absurd to the Luminary as it is true, and she has to bite her lip to keep an insane giggle from escaping. It was all too much - the battle, the aftermath, Noah's quite concern.

The last person who'd treated her as though she were their child was dead now. Why was it that she couldn't keep anyone who loved her?

"Why?" she said before she could stop herself, a choked sound somewhere between bitterness and hysteria. "Why does it matter?" Why did she matter? She's expendable. Barely useful at the best of times. Hadn't the battle proved that? Hadn't she just been in the way? "Why do you care so much?"

And you don't want to know me, I will just let you down
You don't wanna know me now

Sohalia