Zavien
Never regret anything that made you smile
There had always been the lingering fear of rejection, assuming that his feelings in the daylight would be too much, too sudden, too eager. Despite every longing look and tender moment, he thought his impulsivity might have been the root of her emotions, that maybe he'd pushed her into pretending that she cared just to appease him in the heat of the moment. He'd half expected her to change her mind when he wasn't influencing her anymore, he might have wanted her to so he wouldn't be faced with the feelings taking form.
But Soh dismissed all that in a single motion. She climbed into his arms without fear or hesitation, arms wrapping around his neck in a hug that rattled his heart. His breath caught fragile in his chest and his hands hovered in a dangerous battle that lasted no more than half a heartbeat before he was giving in. Yesterday felt like a distant dream that came rushing back, his body easily remembering what it was like to hold her, to push aside the rest of the world and just breathe her in.
Pulling her tight to his chest, Zavien buried his face in her neck and the curls that tickled his cheek. A crack opened along his heart, the rightness of the moment aching so fiercely that his breath shook to answer her. "Yes - no - maybe? I don't know." His mind reeled, torn between his loyalty and the way Soh fit too perfect in his arms. Sighing, he said, "Koa is obviously a piece of it, but even if I could take back yesterday, it won't change whatever his response will be, and it won't change how I feel about you." Even if he wished those feelings had been revealed with better timing.
His shoulders tensed, already expecting the loss that might never come but broke his heart regardless. "I'm scared of losing my best friend." Then his shoulders shook around the breath he pulled, something deeper and darker bubbling up through the cracks in his strength, pushing through in his moment of honesty.
"I'm scared of losing something more again." It was barely a trembling whisper, his hands twitching like they wanted to hold her tighter, fear threatening to suffocate him if he let her in.
But Soh dismissed all that in a single motion. She climbed into his arms without fear or hesitation, arms wrapping around his neck in a hug that rattled his heart. His breath caught fragile in his chest and his hands hovered in a dangerous battle that lasted no more than half a heartbeat before he was giving in. Yesterday felt like a distant dream that came rushing back, his body easily remembering what it was like to hold her, to push aside the rest of the world and just breathe her in.
Pulling her tight to his chest, Zavien buried his face in her neck and the curls that tickled his cheek. A crack opened along his heart, the rightness of the moment aching so fiercely that his breath shook to answer her. "Yes - no - maybe? I don't know." His mind reeled, torn between his loyalty and the way Soh fit too perfect in his arms. Sighing, he said, "Koa is obviously a piece of it, but even if I could take back yesterday, it won't change whatever his response will be, and it won't change how I feel about you." Even if he wished those feelings had been revealed with better timing.
His shoulders tensed, already expecting the loss that might never come but broke his heart regardless. "I'm scared of losing my best friend." Then his shoulders shook around the breath he pulled, something deeper and darker bubbling up through the cracks in his strength, pushing through in his moment of honesty.
"I'm scared of losing something more again." It was barely a trembling whisper, his hands twitching like they wanted to hold her tighter, fear threatening to suffocate him if he let her in.
