Zavien
Never regret anything that made you smile
He'd said the words, given consent, even welcomed the kiss by meeting her halfway, but he hadn't realized how different it would feel today. Yesterday had been experienced through a concentrated lens of emotions, his physical desires and impulses at the forefront of every thought, devouring most rational means of comprehending what he was doing. But today with the sun filtering bright through the windows and the air having cooled drastically and his mind in full working order, Zavien could fully appreciate the weight of the action.
Conflict still sung through his head, warning of all the ways this could and would go wrong, reminding him of what he might lose by giving into this. Nothing was going to be the same and it terrified him.
But his heart wouldn't listen. Where it had been thrilled and brimming with desire before, it fluttered and soared against his ribcage. There was something special about kissing Soh, something that he couldn't ignore, the force of his emotions threatening to knock him over. He liked her. Gods, he liked her so much that something as simple as this innocent kiss set his heart racing. His head turned light, thought fleeing the impact of her.
When she eventually pulled away, Zavien was left without words, stunned and somewhat disoriented by the effect of it. He should feel guilty for daring to cross the line again, for choosing to betray Koa without whatever had influenced him yesterday, but all he could think of was the sweet taste of her mouth and when he might taste her again. Warmth tingled across his lips, suddenly more aware of every place they touched, his bare chest, her arms around his neck, her in his shirt with nothing underneath.
Swallowing down the rising heat and flood of emotions, Zavien blinked to clear his mind, but he was obviously distracted as he said, "A picnic. Sure. Let's do it." His head shook at the following question, not really having a place in mind. There were plenty of flower fields around King's End. They all looked the same to him.
He started to settle back down, a smile creeping onto his face when she teased him. "That's not a bad idea. Although we could always do an early lunch picnic - or make it a breakfast picnic." Zavien thought he recalled a new coffee shop down the road, and there were always plenty of bakeries. Grocery shopping could wait for another time. The way he sat unhurried with his hands resting along her back implied the same; he was in no rush to move.
Conflict still sung through his head, warning of all the ways this could and would go wrong, reminding him of what he might lose by giving into this. Nothing was going to be the same and it terrified him.
But his heart wouldn't listen. Where it had been thrilled and brimming with desire before, it fluttered and soared against his ribcage. There was something special about kissing Soh, something that he couldn't ignore, the force of his emotions threatening to knock him over. He liked her. Gods, he liked her so much that something as simple as this innocent kiss set his heart racing. His head turned light, thought fleeing the impact of her.
When she eventually pulled away, Zavien was left without words, stunned and somewhat disoriented by the effect of it. He should feel guilty for daring to cross the line again, for choosing to betray Koa without whatever had influenced him yesterday, but all he could think of was the sweet taste of her mouth and when he might taste her again. Warmth tingled across his lips, suddenly more aware of every place they touched, his bare chest, her arms around his neck, her in his shirt with nothing underneath.
Swallowing down the rising heat and flood of emotions, Zavien blinked to clear his mind, but he was obviously distracted as he said, "A picnic. Sure. Let's do it." His head shook at the following question, not really having a place in mind. There were plenty of flower fields around King's End. They all looked the same to him.
He started to settle back down, a smile creeping onto his face when she teased him. "That's not a bad idea. Although we could always do an early lunch picnic - or make it a breakfast picnic." Zavien thought he recalled a new coffee shop down the road, and there were always plenty of bakeries. Grocery shopping could wait for another time. The way he sat unhurried with his hands resting along her back implied the same; he was in no rush to move.
