Zavien
It is the small everyday deeds of ordinary folk
that keep the darkness at bay.
He didn't recall much from his time in Mort's halls. It had been so brief. But Liam's words reminded him of what it had felt to be at peace after completing his last act of notifying Remi of the others' need for help. He hadn't expected to come back, in fact, he might have resented it at first, being forced back into the pain of reality when he'd been content to rest. Had those thoughts been what kept him from contacting Lena? Or had it been a fear of facing her? Of admitting that he hadn't been able to protect her?
Liam's question drew his gaze from where it lingered on the table, brows hanging low as he thought of what he'd do with the opportunity. "I'm not sure... I guess... I'd want to tell her that I love her one last time." She should have known, but in case she might have forgotten during her moment of fear... Zavien hadn't told her enough.
But there was another reason, and Zavien looked out the window as he admitted, "I'd want to hear her say that it's okay for me to move on." The words left his mouth and he was immediately crushed by guilt, dropping his head into his hands with a huff of broken laughter. "Gods, that sounds so selfish." Why would he disturb her rest for that? Just to make himself feel better about developing feelings for someone else. He was a horrible person.
Liam's question drew his gaze from where it lingered on the table, brows hanging low as he thought of what he'd do with the opportunity. "I'm not sure... I guess... I'd want to tell her that I love her one last time." She should have known, but in case she might have forgotten during her moment of fear... Zavien hadn't told her enough.
But there was another reason, and Zavien looked out the window as he admitted, "I'd want to hear her say that it's okay for me to move on." The words left his mouth and he was immediately crushed by guilt, dropping his head into his hands with a huff of broken laughter. "Gods, that sounds so selfish." Why would he disturb her rest for that? Just to make himself feel better about developing feelings for someone else. He was a horrible person.
