Sohalia
I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you
I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you
I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you
The thing was, Soh was less concerned about herself being hurt and more concerned about hurting Zavien. When she looked back on past relationships, all she could see was the wrong she had done; why should this be any different? Still, Flora's soothing words smoothed over some of the jagged edges of Soh's heart. "It's not that I don't appreciate it," she assured her friend, silver gaze flicking affectionately to Flora's face. "It's just... I guess I feel a little blinded, not to have asked some of these questions already. To be diving in without really... thinking, I guess." And wasn't that the reason for half of her problems?
She bit her lower lip, considering. "The thing is... nothing ever felt like it just... aligned, before. With Jude, I never should have dated him in the first place - we were better as friends than as more. And with Koa, it was always back and forth and back and forth. None of it was easy, so... maybe I'm just, you know, embracing it a little too much." So much so that she hadn't questioned Zavien's actions, that she hadn't questioned her own motivations, that she hadn't stopped to consider consequences and ramifications that could hurt Zavien - or, for that matter, that could break her own heart all over again.
And maybe all of this was for nothing. Maybe she'd come back to Flora one day with a smug little smile and an I told you so. There was still hope buried beneath all the questions, and Soh was going to cling to that for all she was worth.
So she listened as Flora continued, trying to internalize the message that things didn't have to be perfect to be good. "I think that's one thing I appreciated about Zavien," she mused thoughtfully. "When we woke up, and I thought he regretted sleeping with me - he was so quick to reassure me, and it made me feel like I could really talk to him. I didn't feel like I had to walk on eggshells or keep my feelings to myself." A small, shy smile played on her lips. "I know that's not exactly what you mean, but I was fully prepared to have to pretend I was fine, that it could be a one-time thing and I'd be okay with that, but... he was open and honest about his feelings, and it made me feel like I could be, too." Shaking her head, she glanced over at Flora again. "That... probably sounds like the bare minimum. But to me, it just... said a lot." It told her that the potential was there, even if the details hadn't been ironed out yet.
A seafoam green shell caught Soh's eye, and she dipped to pick it up and tuck it away in her basket. She'd never had a relationship that was strong, never been able to really be herself. When she and Jude had started dating, she'd had to wrap up all of the parts of them that had been best friends, trading them in for a sham of a relationship. She'd loved him, but not in the right ways. And with Koa... well, we all know how that turned out. She could only love Koa for so long before the lack of reciprocation wore away even the best of intentions.
Now she had a fresh start, and she was determined to make the most of it. "I hear you," she said quietly. "I just really think there's the potential for something special with Zavien. I think we deserve to see where it goes." And maybe that was enough for now.
She bit her lower lip, considering. "The thing is... nothing ever felt like it just... aligned, before. With Jude, I never should have dated him in the first place - we were better as friends than as more. And with Koa, it was always back and forth and back and forth. None of it was easy, so... maybe I'm just, you know, embracing it a little too much." So much so that she hadn't questioned Zavien's actions, that she hadn't questioned her own motivations, that she hadn't stopped to consider consequences and ramifications that could hurt Zavien - or, for that matter, that could break her own heart all over again.
And maybe all of this was for nothing. Maybe she'd come back to Flora one day with a smug little smile and an I told you so. There was still hope buried beneath all the questions, and Soh was going to cling to that for all she was worth.
So she listened as Flora continued, trying to internalize the message that things didn't have to be perfect to be good. "I think that's one thing I appreciated about Zavien," she mused thoughtfully. "When we woke up, and I thought he regretted sleeping with me - he was so quick to reassure me, and it made me feel like I could really talk to him. I didn't feel like I had to walk on eggshells or keep my feelings to myself." A small, shy smile played on her lips. "I know that's not exactly what you mean, but I was fully prepared to have to pretend I was fine, that it could be a one-time thing and I'd be okay with that, but... he was open and honest about his feelings, and it made me feel like I could be, too." Shaking her head, she glanced over at Flora again. "That... probably sounds like the bare minimum. But to me, it just... said a lot." It told her that the potential was there, even if the details hadn't been ironed out yet.
A seafoam green shell caught Soh's eye, and she dipped to pick it up and tuck it away in her basket. She'd never had a relationship that was strong, never been able to really be herself. When she and Jude had started dating, she'd had to wrap up all of the parts of them that had been best friends, trading them in for a sham of a relationship. She'd loved him, but not in the right ways. And with Koa... well, we all know how that turned out. She could only love Koa for so long before the lack of reciprocation wore away even the best of intentions.
Now she had a fresh start, and she was determined to make the most of it. "I hear you," she said quietly. "I just really think there's the potential for something special with Zavien. I think we deserve to see where it goes." And maybe that was enough for now.
I've been sleeping so long in a twenty-year dark night
And now I see daylight, I only see daylight
And now I see daylight, I only see daylight
Minor powerplay allowed without permission.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
