All I know is this could either break my heart or bring it back to life
Maybe nobody else blamed her - but she still blamed herself, no matter how ridiculous she knew that it was to do so. If she had been strong enough to stand up to the Family, they'd probably have either infected her or killed her, and then where would she be? But she'd never been able to shake the feeling that she could have done more, that when things had gotten hard, all she'd done was run away. "I know you're right," she murmured. "I do. But it's hard to make myself feel that way, sometimes."
Zavien held her tighter as she spoke of her struggles, and she leaned into it, subconsciously drawing strength from his support. Looking back at who she'd been after Tarak's death, she regretted a lot of choices. But as her boyfriend had rightly stated, they wouldn't be where they were without the good and the bad. Maybe she should forgive herself for some of her poor decision making.
When she turned the question back on him, she was unsurprised to find that his answer was just as complicated as her own. She listened, leaning into him, patiently waiting for him to describe how he felt. When he sighed and dropped his head back to look at the ceiling, Soh shifted to wrap one arm around his middle, peering up at his profile. "You aren't a nobody," she murmured. "Not to me, and not to the rest of Caido. You may not have Stormbreak anymore, but any region is lucky to have you and everything you've learned."
Soh fell silent, still wrapped around Zavien. She wanted to fix it for him, wanted to find him a new venture that could fill the void that leadership had left. She just wasn't sure what that was. They were both adrift, adjusting to a life they'd never expected to be living. "I wish I had answers for us both," she said finally. "But... I guess we just have to trust that we'll figure it out. Maybe it's Hak Etme, or maybe there's something that we're missing that's right in front of our faces." She hesitated. Knowing what she knew now about the history between Zavien and Kaisel - and, by extension, Flora - she wasn't sure he'd ever be interested in coming to Torchline, but Flora had extended an offer when she'd seen her friend last.
"I, uh... know this is going to sound crazy - for a variety of reasons," she began, stumbling nervously. "But... Flora said that Ronin could probably use help training and managing Torchline's soldiers. If something like that would even be something you'd be interested in. Which, I totally get if you're not, but, well, I guess my point is that maybe there are options out there."
Zavien held her tighter as she spoke of her struggles, and she leaned into it, subconsciously drawing strength from his support. Looking back at who she'd been after Tarak's death, she regretted a lot of choices. But as her boyfriend had rightly stated, they wouldn't be where they were without the good and the bad. Maybe she should forgive herself for some of her poor decision making.
When she turned the question back on him, she was unsurprised to find that his answer was just as complicated as her own. She listened, leaning into him, patiently waiting for him to describe how he felt. When he sighed and dropped his head back to look at the ceiling, Soh shifted to wrap one arm around his middle, peering up at his profile. "You aren't a nobody," she murmured. "Not to me, and not to the rest of Caido. You may not have Stormbreak anymore, but any region is lucky to have you and everything you've learned."
Soh fell silent, still wrapped around Zavien. She wanted to fix it for him, wanted to find him a new venture that could fill the void that leadership had left. She just wasn't sure what that was. They were both adrift, adjusting to a life they'd never expected to be living. "I wish I had answers for us both," she said finally. "But... I guess we just have to trust that we'll figure it out. Maybe it's Hak Etme, or maybe there's something that we're missing that's right in front of our faces." She hesitated. Knowing what she knew now about the history between Zavien and Kaisel - and, by extension, Flora - she wasn't sure he'd ever be interested in coming to Torchline, but Flora had extended an offer when she'd seen her friend last.
"I, uh... know this is going to sound crazy - for a variety of reasons," she began, stumbling nervously. "But... Flora said that Ronin could probably use help training and managing Torchline's soldiers. If something like that would even be something you'd be interested in. Which, I totally get if you're not, but, well, I guess my point is that maybe there are options out there."
Got a feelin' your electric touch could fill this ghost town up with life
Minor powerplay allowed without permission.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
