a rollercoaster kind of rush

Zavien

The pen scratched against paper as she wrote it out again then repeated what she'd written aloud. Zavien gave a decisive nod of his head. "I think that sounds best." He'd obviously take Soh's opinion into consideration if she felt further edits were necessary, but he wasn't sure there was a way to say, 'Prove you're not a dick and we'll share food with you.'

When she looked at him, he saw a reflection of the frustrations he felt, the doubt and unease surrounding the precipice they stood on. This would determine whether they even gave Kai a chance, would set the tone of future interactions, and ultimately, could define Soh's relationship with Flora. Zavien knew this wouldn't be easy for her and knew that there was much more at stake for her than him. 

He wrapped an arm around her shoulder, drawing her close as he looked down at the letter. "Me too." Nothing about this gave him joy, and he hated how things had transpired between him and Kai, but - Zavien shook his head. "Even if he sounds sincere, it'll take time for us to believe anything he says. But at least we might not have to make it a big deal anymore. He'll know what we are and aren't willing to put up with." And maybe they could get on with their lives in peace.

I love you with everything I am,
everything I've been,
and everything I hope to be.