a rollercoaster kind of rush

Zavien

Content to let Soh handle the sending of the letter, Zavien did his best to be a stable support. He hated that he could feel her tremble in his arms, hated that all of this was causing her such distress, that it was overshadowing the bit of happiness they'd been trying to latch onto. He just prayed it would all be over soon, that they'd manage to move past this someday. 

Hearing the strain in her voice, he tightened his hold on Soh, turning her away from the half-eaten food that sat like a mockery of their joy, forever doomed to be interrupted. Instead, he looked to the structure she'd built, a safe haven where they could find comfort in each other and the soft cushions. What had started as a celebration had certainly turned to a hard conversation, an irony he didn't miss. "I'm glad you had the foresight to set all this up."

Zavien steered her towards it, ignoring her suggestion that they do anything other than settle into each other's arms. "Come on. I can clean up later. Let's just take some time to enjoy this pillow-nest-blanket-fort-thing." But as they curled up besides each other in the quieting of the evening, he quickly forgot about the food, embracing Soh and the baby she carries while trying not to worry about what future they were walking into. 

[FIN]

I love you with everything I am,
everything I've been,
and everything I hope to be.