good and bad end up in the song

Kaisel's touch on her hand snapped her gaze to his, unaware that it had wandered to something in the distance that she couldn't quite see. The motion was grounding, and Noe took a deep breath before smiling at her cousin. "I feel better," she admitted quietly. There weren't many who knew how horrible the months after her infection had been: how she'd been plagued by nightmares that she could never quite remember when she awoke, but knew that they featured far too much purple and far too many eyes; how she'd taken to sleeping with her head under the covers because if she couldn't see them, they couldn't see her; how she'd drifted here and there, not really settling in any one place in particular, because even home didn't feel safe anymore. It had been a lot.

And now, she was finally beginning to feel like herself again. She might not have it all figured out, but she had a direction again, a purpose. "I've decided where I'm going to settle," she announced, flashing a bright smile at Kaisel. "And you're going to think I've lost my mind, but hear me out." She paused for dramatic effect. "I met this woman who's trying to tame Hak Etme. I'm going to go be her engineer for building it up." Looking like the cat who got into the cream, Noe sat back and smirked, smug and satisfied with the direction she'd chosen.

Was feeling so weak but baby I'm strong
Little did I know I'm a champion

Noe