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Ah, but that required Oliver to know who exactly he could fully trust. Sure, there were a few people he felt extremely comfortable around, but what if he found out they were merely using him? It was conflicting and Oliver believed Jigano most likely wouldn't be able to help him, so he'd just have to figure it all out himself. Still, he was grateful for the advice Jigano gave to him as it was still a start. "Yeah....yeah I'll try to do that. I know a lot of it is just people telling me that I'm making bad assumptions or something like that." PLENTY of people had done that to him, which was shown through how he spoke. He had an air of annoyance, but also seemed exhausted. Like he had been told it so many times that he simply believed everyone would have a problem with what he did or said. Oliver knew by now that the gods didn't like the abandoned, so at least now he understood why his prior prayers were ignored. His anger stemmed from the fact that they responded to some abandoned individuals, but not to him. But Oliver knew he needed to be positive, he had already ruined his first meeting with Jigano. Might as well try to prevent it from going even further south. At the suggestion of Ludo, Oliver couldn't help but shake his head. There was no anger towards Ludo, there was fear. Ludo was someone Oliver knew was important and he didn't rue its existence, nor did he despise the god. Rather, he was afraid of what Ludo could do to him. "Unfortunately, I don't think it's in my best interest to go to Ludo....Ludo maybe nice to you, but I've been warned that Ludo could take away the very little memories I have earned here." He was worried, that much was clear. He didn't want to lose the only thing he had to think about at night, the very few memories he had managed to collect. "Don't think I don't appreciate Ludo, but I have so much to lose...and I was told that if I seek them out for anything regarding my memories, it may be quick to simply yank everything I have away. I will still leave offerings, but I don't believe it will want to give me the ability of being attuned, at least not without a price." OLIVER i saw that my life was a vast glowing empty page and i could do anything i wanted