I'll Be There For You

phoebe Sleep and I shall soothe you, calm you, and annoint you She wasn’t sure why but the way he said that felt more like an insult than an off-handed comment. Phoebe swallowed a lump in her throat with a frown, looking down at her lap but not at him. Her whole countenance and demeanor had fallen with her gaze. Had she been in a better emotional state herself, and better rested, it probably wouldn’t have hurt her feelings as much as it did, but now she couldn’t help the tears welling up in her eyes. ”O-oh…” she said quietly, her hurt obvious in her tone, even in that singular syllable. Ludo thought she was dumb. Frey thought she was vanilla. Emmett thought it was weird she had spoken to any of them. She brought some kind of bad luck to the Palmer’s obviously. Could she do anything right? ”If they could fix it I think they would have. Obviously it’s more complicated than that.” she said quietly, still not looking at him. ”And it isn’t just their thing. Its all connected. You don’t look at a field of crops and say well it’s the plant’s job to grow why does the farmer need to tend it?” she said as an example. It wasn’t so cut and dry as who had what responsibility, because they were all responsible in different ways. ”But I am just starting to learn about these deities. I didn’t even grow up somewhere where gods existed. I…don’t know yet what I am going to do.” she said quietly, only then daring to glance at him. ”And I can tell you don’t really care to help so…I don’t know.” By the end, her voice was hardly above a whisper. Phoebe merely shrugged at his final comment, feeling increasingly defeated and useless as the seconds passed. She couldn’t even comfort Emmett, what made her think she could help anyone else? She was just a stupid Outlander girl who didn’t know anything about anything, trying to understand things she had no business understanding. She was just in the way, causing more problems than she was fixing. ”I’ll shut up about it now though. I’m just being bothersome.”