memory’s so treacherous
”Mm... I thought she was an angel, the first day I met her.” He lets out a soft sigh. He hadn’t even been wearing his glasses back then - it had just been regular old madness and sleep deprivation at play. ”She is pretty,” he repeats under his breath; he can remember the heat rolling off her body, the way she fit against him in a way he can barely understand. The way he wanted her, the way he wanted to hurt her.
Finn looks to Tobi for help, expecting too much and finding himself empty in a way that is unfair on her. But she is right - he’s getting better, stronger after sleep, after water. Soon she’ll not need to keep an eye on him. Just Falke, then, while Tobi goes to collect Amalia...
”I see,” he says, with eyes softly hazed over, turning back to the door. Heavy, solid, built years upon years ago. How many hands have folded round this door? Finn pulls down the handle, heaves it open—
And slips the fingers of his left hand into the frame, before throwing the door shut on them. He feels the bones crush as well as hears them, and there’s a raw feeling in his throat - he’s screaming, he realises, his hand wet and hot with blood, slivers of white bone breaking the skin.
Finn looks to Tobi for help, expecting too much and finding himself empty in a way that is unfair on her. But she is right - he’s getting better, stronger after sleep, after water. Soon she’ll not need to keep an eye on him. Just Falke, then, while Tobi goes to collect Amalia...
”I see,” he says, with eyes softly hazed over, turning back to the door. Heavy, solid, built years upon years ago. How many hands have folded round this door? Finn pulls down the handle, heaves it open—
And slips the fingers of his left hand into the frame, before throwing the door shut on them. He feels the bones crush as well as hears them, and there’s a raw feeling in his throat - he’s screaming, he realises, his hand wet and hot with blood, slivers of white bone breaking the skin.
one moment you’re lost in a carnival of delights
the next, it leads you somewhere you don’t want to go
FINN
