[Training] know how to resurrect

i am afraid that if i open myself

i will not stop pouring

The amulet is placed around her neck, her gratitude offered, before she’s tucking the bow around her shoulder and tearing her gaze away to scan the rest of the training ring, trying to feel for a part of her that wants to continue, to hone and sharpen her edges, even if that spot within her is mostly full of annoyance and upset. She inhales a breath she doesn’t need, feeling it expand in her chest but not quite offering the relief she seeks as she exhales in a sigh that isn’t seen by the coldness outside.

“No, I think I’m okay.” Her attention flickers back to Deimos then, readjusting the bow on her shoulder and offering him a small smile. “Chuy should be heading home soon I think, though. We could walk there together if you wanted.” The offer is extended, to walk home with her, where she could offer tea or snacks, something to help pay back for what he’s done for her in the little ways she knows how, even if she doesn’t get the same out of it anymore.

why do i fear becoming a river?

what mountain gave me such shame?

KIADA