Falling slowly

PHOEBE

"I think it is a pretty big jump to say I used him just because I was lackadaisical about preventing a pregnancy." she said, her eyebrows furrowing. "I didn't sleep with him because I wanted to get pregnant, I did it because I really like him and it felt right in the moment." she said, her cheeks reddening slightly. She had been careless, yes, but she hadn't used Emmett to get a baby. Simply when that fate came to pass due to carelessness, she had been happy to have it.

Phoebe listened quietly as he spoke, trying not to get offended at the comparison. But he was quick to qualify that it was merely an explanation of his criticism, not his feelings towards her per se. "I will be more careful." she promised quietly, deciding it best to let the argument die where it was. He had said his piece. She had said hers. In the end, nothing was going to change, as all they argued about remained in the past. Going forward, she knew it would take time for her body to fully recover, she knew she and Emmett needed time to fully sort things out, it really was for the best. But she would always mourn this child, even knowing that it would have been difficult had she been able to bring them to the world whole.

She smiled a little at his jest about Loren, who she had very strong opinions about. But as he explained how things had fallen apart with Sam she frowned, hugging him a little tighter. "I'm sorry, Remi. Sam..." she sighed and shook her head. "You didn't deserve that. But...maybe it is for the best. You deserve someone with the strength to stick through hard times, not someone who is going to run at the first hurdle they encounter." she said encouragingly.

Cause getting your dreams
It's strange, but it seems
A little - well - complicated
There's a kind of a sort of : cost
There's a couple of things get: lost
There are bridges you cross
You didn't know you crossed
Until you've crossed
And if that joy, that thrill
Doesn't thrill you like you think it will
Still, why am I not happier?