eyes can't shine unless there's something burning bright behind
She's all too familiar with the sentiment of having lost someone, and in no easy way either. Loss has cropped up in every facet of Aurelia's life, rearing its ugly head just when things seem like they might be fine. It's an anxiety-inducing thing to try and predict it, and yet to actually experience it again and again - no matter how braced for it you are - is never easy. She draws silent, her hostility and hurt feelings fade, and all she's left with is that sense of understanding again.
"I get it," she mumbles, staring down at the papers strewn between them, "I do. You're not the only one, Sunjata..." She doesn't say this to minimize his pain, but to let him know that others share it - or have felt it in some measure.
"I felt the same way when I first got here.." she begins, sighing softly herself, "I thought my life had ended, that I'd never be able to feel real happiness again because everything that mattered to me - which wasn't much, considering how much I'd lost - was gone. But I knew I couldn't take myself out, or give up... So I just.. tried to.. survive. Not really wondering what the next day, week, month, would look like because it's already hard enough to take it day by day."
Her fingers rest limply against the table and she glances up towards him, pursing her lips for a moment. "But there's hope in it, in this place. Sometimes that's all you can have, Sunjata."
And that has to be enough.
"I get it," she mumbles, staring down at the papers strewn between them, "I do. You're not the only one, Sunjata..." She doesn't say this to minimize his pain, but to let him know that others share it - or have felt it in some measure.
"I felt the same way when I first got here.." she begins, sighing softly herself, "I thought my life had ended, that I'd never be able to feel real happiness again because everything that mattered to me - which wasn't much, considering how much I'd lost - was gone. But I knew I couldn't take myself out, or give up... So I just.. tried to.. survive. Not really wondering what the next day, week, month, would look like because it's already hard enough to take it day by day."
Her fingers rest limply against the table and she glances up towards him, pursing her lips for a moment. "But there's hope in it, in this place. Sometimes that's all you can have, Sunjata."
And that has to be enough.
Aurelia
