Love mends even the broken parts
Although he knew this was a mistake, Loren allowed himself to be pulled into the other man’s chest. To be enveloped by the alchemist’s wings. To be held by Remi’s always gentle arms. The summoner knew that he didn’t deserve any of this, and that it would just make the inevitable goodbye so much harder. But in that moment, his need for human contact of any kind superseded his concern that he’d mangle everything between the two of them even further. If such a thing were possible. So, squeezing his eyes shut, the Launceleyn felt his own hands reach out to clasp Remi’s.
He was silent for a long time as tears threatened to fall from his eyes. They weren’t icy anymore, just sad. When he did spoke, it was in a whisper. ”I’m sorry. I’m...so sorry. I’m sorry I can’t just seem to...accept whatever you’re willing to offer. Whatever everyone is willing to offer. I want to. I want to have friends, and to be loved. But…” He trailed off, momentarily unsure what he might say, what further objection he might raise. Then he found one. After all, he was good at that. ”But I think my love just causes pain.” He saw it in the way Beatrix shied away from him. Heard it in the cruel laughter he’d shown to Ronin. Felt it in the way Remi trembled against him, knew it in the way the alchemist had come to Loren’s side, even when it hurt both of them.
He was silent for a long time as tears threatened to fall from his eyes. They weren’t icy anymore, just sad. When he did spoke, it was in a whisper. ”I’m sorry. I’m...so sorry. I’m sorry I can’t just seem to...accept whatever you’re willing to offer. Whatever everyone is willing to offer. I want to. I want to have friends, and to be loved. But…” He trailed off, momentarily unsure what he might say, what further objection he might raise. Then he found one. After all, he was good at that. ”But I think my love just causes pain.” He saw it in the way Beatrix shied away from him. Heard it in the cruel laughter he’d shown to Ronin. Felt it in the way Remi trembled against him, knew it in the way the alchemist had come to Loren’s side, even when it hurt both of them.
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