Sighing, Loren lifted his hand from Maea's shoulder and let it drop to his side. For a long time, he was silent, though his slightly furrowed brow and the way his fingers drummed a beat against his thigh betrayed his restless thoughts. Finally he sighed again. "Look, it's your choice." He gave her a sympathetic look. Then he shrugged. "If you ask me, though, which you didn't really, so feel free to tell me to shut up at any point, you should think less about how much you care for him and more about whether he's good for you. Whether the...time you spend together and the way he makes you feel is worth all the...other stuff. All the bad parts." As he spoke, he grew misty-eyed and his voice grew more than a bit sad. LOREN Not quite an open book |
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02-03-2020, 02:51 AM
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02-03-2020, 03:01 AM
Don't paint wonderful lies on me that wash away
Maea wished she could say she didn't know what he was talking about. But she did. The guilt, the shame, the jealousy and self-deprication for letting him come back even after she'd drawn the lines and set up rules... It wasn't good and it wasn't right, and she knew it. At least there wasn't so many 'other things' to talk about as Loren seemed to think. A small ray of hope, that. She wasn't in over her head yet. "I appreciate your concern," she said, and found that she really meant it. Looking up at her friend briefly, Maea managed a small smile to prove it. "Don't hesitate to tell me if I'm being an idiot. It's useful to hear at times." Straightening her shoulders, she forced down a deep breath and again let out a sigh, repeating the process until she felt less heavy. Not even noticing that she was using the breathing technique Loren had taught her not so long ago. Clearly it was working. "Anyway... do you think it fits with your riddle? Something real that seems fake, or something fake that seems real. Maybe you're a better judge of where it falls, as you're not in the middle of it." A small concession, that perhaps she was in too deep to see the whole picture. the Firebrand
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02-03-2020, 03:19 AM
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02-03-2020, 03:45 AM
Don't paint wonderful lies on me that wash away
The smile was pale and a little weary, but there all the same. Maea nodded, accepting the deal - she had been striking a lot of those lately. "I can think of one person," she offered, wry smile indicating it might be the very man they'd just been discussing. His reaction to the offer was met with a raised brow and a nod. "Why not? Do you think Frey will make the relation go away by using it?" She didn't see how it would be possible, except by erasing memories... and that was apparently Ludo's go-to trick. "If this mess can help you with something at all, then at least I'll have that going for it." the Firebrand
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02-03-2020, 03:56 AM
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02-03-2020, 04:54 AM
Don't paint wonderful lies on me that wash away
"Delphia keep telling me to go with my gut feeling," she told Loren. The girl didn't seem to mind that her offer was rejected, though there was a frown at the mention that Remi's actual love had been taken away. Perhaps... it wasn't as permanent a thing as she thought it might be? "So, if you think you should keep it personal then I say you're probably right. Still, if everything else fails, my offer stands." Maea was rather relieved to have the topic move on, away from her personal problems. Not that she minded confiding in Loren, but... there was a nagging worry that she might have caused trouble for Sunjata today. A tiny part of her almost hoped so... but she crushed it firmly beneath a twisted heel. the Firebrand
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02-03-2020, 02:23 PM
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02-03-2020, 05:15 PM
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Turning more directly towards the man, Maea gave him a soft smile. "Everyone makes mistakes and get things wrong, Loren. That doesn't mean you should give up, or doubt yourself. You've heard my embarrassing story... so if you want to share yours, I'm ready to return the favor of not judging. Or not, if you prefer to keep it to yourself; either way, it's your choice." She would try to be trustworthy, to be someone he could confide in, if he wanted to. Or simply accept his silence, if that was his preference. It was all about choice for her. "Of course, we can do that," she replied and headed over to the shrine that had been erected. There was incence and candles provided for those who came to call, little shelves for tools and idols commonly used in the little rituals - it seemed to her that some of them might be the same here as in the Ground. As she examined the available items, as well as the offerings left behind by previous visitors, she offered Loren a way out in case he didn't want to answer her offer. "Did you practice religion in your homeland?" she asked him, as she began to pick out what she wanted to use. the Firebrand
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02-03-2020, 05:23 PM
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02-03-2020, 05:42 PM
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She remained quiet for a while, considering the task, what Loren had wanted help with and the outcome. If she was bothered by the subject, it didn't show. Her face was quite serene, save for a slight coloring to her cheeks... but that could just be the heat of the room, right? (Well no, she was definitely blushing.) The revelation that there were no gods where he'd come from was far more of a shock. Maea gave him a startled look, a million questions crowding in her eyes - how was that even possible? - but she was able to hold them back. Considered again, and nodded slowly. "If you never interacted with gods before, then I should say you are excused for any and all future mistakes," she said with a kind expression. "How could anyone expect you to know the ins and outs of a culture and traditions you were not born to? I'm natural born, and I still make them. " She knelt down by the shrine and waved him over with a hand, patting the floorboards beside her. Reaching for flint and steel, she produced a small flame and brought a stick of incence into it, placed it in a little bowl of sand on the shrine and offered him the chance to do the same. "What made you turn to Frey with your first request?" she asked. "To cure a broken heart..." the Firebrand
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02-03-2020, 05:48 PM
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02-03-2020, 06:27 PM
MAEA Carry me through this world alive
I feel no more, this suffering Picking out a pair of candles, Maea offered one to Loren and lit the other herself. Waiting for the wick to catch, she mused aloud; "I can't help but think that Frey is quite bright," she said. "Your heart was broken, in essence because you did not understand yourself and your wants, needs and urges. Nor those of your partner. So, they set you a task that would force you to look at yourself more deeply. To help you heal your own wounds, by accepting who you are. And accept others for who they are. To not be afraid of... sharing yourself."
As the flame grew brighter and the wax began to melt, Maea let a few drops fall onto the shrine and placed the butt of the candle into it, so it would hold itself up. "You know... there are no set ways to worship here. Each god has their own preferences. For Ludo we make lanterns and remember our dead, offer toys and items of personal affect... because death is personal, and sometimes memory is all we have left to give. To Safrin we bring pretty baubles and flowers, ask about life and how to live it well... because it's beautiful and full of wonder, even when it hurts." "And Frey..." She gazed into the flame, again with color seeping into her face, flushing the pale skin quite crimson. "Some offer seeds and fruits of harvest to them, but in the end, there's only one real way to honor them. By... you know. Coming together, with... others." It was awfully hard to get the words out, to explain what she knew but also knew nothing about, and still shied from even in her own thoughts. "But also by knowing yourself and accepting who you are, by not shying away from what's in your nature. Things are the way they are, and good or bad have nothing to do with it. "In the end... I think Frey might be the most difficult of them to deal with. Trying to hide anything or put complicated reasons over very simple things is just... pointless." Bury me in this cold light I feed the wolf, and shed my skin the Firebrand
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02-03-2020, 06:40 PM
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She watched him light the candle, followed the simple movements of his hands without comment, without interrupting as he responded to her reflections. There was something very serene and peaceful about the girl here, in this place. An ease and comfort that came as much from speaking about the gods with someone who would actually listen, as from his company. For all that he was closed off and difficult to read... there was an honesty about this man that she very much appreciated.
"You can talk to them about it," she suggested, indicating the shrine. The gods, the powers that did govern this world. "They might not always appear when we pray, but they always listen. They are with us, if we choose to let them in, and they will not judge you for who you are. Even if you can't confide in anyone else, believe that they will hear you, and listen, and perhaps with time you will be able to find the courage you need to be who you were meant to be." Reaching out, a bit tentative as she wasn't sure if he would allow it, Maea tried to touch the backside of her fingers to his cheek. A soft gesture, kind and compassionate, that wouldn't linger unless he wished it to. "You are not alone anymore. Whether you know it or not, you have friends here. Not one of us will allow you to be hurt like that again, if you only let us be there for you. I'm still learning to trust myself, so I know it's not easy... but if you want to risk it, I don't mind a bit of openness from time to time." Loren had said himself that she should let people in. Now she offered him the same chance, just as she had before. Lost in a world full of non-believers Searching for smoke in a still water pond BASE INSPIRED BY ODD <3
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