Whether I'm gonna curse you out or
Take you back to my house
Take you back to my house
Really Flora wouldn't have been surprised if Sohalia, sweet and kind as she was, decided to up and leave, so it was with a sigh of quiet surprise that the queen accepted the offered wine. Hiccuping in a breath to feel the arm wrapped around her shoulders, Flora melts against the Luminary, her eyes pressing closed. "Okay, well whatever is worse than a bitch, then." Her laugh is humourless, the smile that she forces onto her lips far heavier than it had any right to be such that she could barely hold it for more than a second.
"I know you do, I just..." Swallowing despite the fingers that feel like they're around her throat, Flora gives her head a rueful little shake. "..it's so complicated because of what happened with you two before, and..." Twisting in order to see her friend more clearly, the Doubletake swipes her fingers across one cheek. "Are you sure you don't mind? I've just...I haven't had anyone to talk to about this." Jack, for all his telepathy had obviously steered well clear of this topic, leaving Flora to do her best not to think about Koa in his presence. She'd managed it well enough (she thought, anyway), but it left her feeling like a volcano fit to burst in the moments when her mind was her own again.
"It's like...I don't regret that I fell in love with Jack, but..it's like in another world it just would have been Koa. Everything feels like it led up to he and I being together and...and something about that, it..." Fresh tears spring to Flora's eyes as she chokes back another sob. Unscrewing the offered wine she takes a large sip followed by another, wishing she could just drain the entire bottle now and sink into the cloudy intoxication it would bring. There weren't words to describe the way she felt—none that she knew, anyway. It was like being able to see through a window into a life that she might have led if things had only been slightly different. The world where she and Koa were together felt so close that sometimes she was sure it overlapped with this one, and in those moments the urge to smash through the glass felt nearly unbearable, like the man on the other side of it was hers. Like her heart thought she had a right to both lives, both sides of the window, even though her mind knew she didn't.
"I know you do, I just..." Swallowing despite the fingers that feel like they're around her throat, Flora gives her head a rueful little shake. "..it's so complicated because of what happened with you two before, and..." Twisting in order to see her friend more clearly, the Doubletake swipes her fingers across one cheek. "Are you sure you don't mind? I've just...I haven't had anyone to talk to about this." Jack, for all his telepathy had obviously steered well clear of this topic, leaving Flora to do her best not to think about Koa in his presence. She'd managed it well enough (she thought, anyway), but it left her feeling like a volcano fit to burst in the moments when her mind was her own again.
"It's like...I don't regret that I fell in love with Jack, but..it's like in another world it just would have been Koa. Everything feels like it led up to he and I being together and...and something about that, it..." Fresh tears spring to Flora's eyes as she chokes back another sob. Unscrewing the offered wine she takes a large sip followed by another, wishing she could just drain the entire bottle now and sink into the cloudy intoxication it would bring. There weren't words to describe the way she felt—none that she knew, anyway. It was like being able to see through a window into a life that she might have led if things had only been slightly different. The world where she and Koa were together felt so close that sometimes she was sure it overlapped with this one, and in those moments the urge to smash through the glass felt nearly unbearable, like the man on the other side of it was hers. Like her heart thought she had a right to both lives, both sides of the window, even though her mind knew she didn't.
flora
I haven't decided yet
But I'm gonna get you back
But I'm gonna get you back
