Got no plans and I've got no money
Gone are the days of milk and honey
Gone are the days of milk and honey
Oh.
Oh.
Soh had tried to be as clear as she could, but it would seem that she had been as clear as mud. And Koa - poor Koa - couldn't be any more clear if he tried.
So the Luminary took a breath. Swallowed hard. "I'm... not very good at this," she admitted with a self-deprecating little laugh. "I just... I'm terrified of messing up... whatever this is." She looked down, her brow knit in thought as she tried to put her thoughts into something that resembled logic. "I think... I'm trying so hard not to push you away or, or - push what I want on you that what I want is getting lost along the way." She'd spent so long obsessing over being selfish or selfless, finding some balance between the two, that she'd lost sight of how to communicate somewhere along the way.
If she'd ever known how to begin with. Suddenly, she wasn't so sure.
Soh turned back to Koa, determination and resolve in her silver eyes. "I don't want to just be friends with you. I don't want you to have to wonder how I feel. I don't always know how to - how to just say what I'm feeling." And she was scared to put herself out there, scared to lose what little ground she'd gained, scared to lose him. "But - let me try?"
She'd spent so long being scared, and for what? For them to reach this impasse anyway?
And maybe it was hard, but maybe that was what made it worth reaching for. Because if she tried to tell him how she felt, and if he felt the same way - well, wasn't that worth it?
And if he didn't, if this all came crashing down around her head - well, it wouldn't be the first time, would it?
"I'm in love with you." The words tumbled out of her so quickly that she had to steady herself with a breath, her fingers squeezing Koa's tightly, as though willing him not to fly away. "And I should have just told you that a long time ago." But it was fucking scary to feel like this, to admit this, to hope to the gods that she wasn't about to fall flat on her face. "I want - I want you, Koa. I want there to be an us."
Oh.
Soh had tried to be as clear as she could, but it would seem that she had been as clear as mud. And Koa - poor Koa - couldn't be any more clear if he tried.
So the Luminary took a breath. Swallowed hard. "I'm... not very good at this," she admitted with a self-deprecating little laugh. "I just... I'm terrified of messing up... whatever this is." She looked down, her brow knit in thought as she tried to put her thoughts into something that resembled logic. "I think... I'm trying so hard not to push you away or, or - push what I want on you that what I want is getting lost along the way." She'd spent so long obsessing over being selfish or selfless, finding some balance between the two, that she'd lost sight of how to communicate somewhere along the way.
If she'd ever known how to begin with. Suddenly, she wasn't so sure.
Soh turned back to Koa, determination and resolve in her silver eyes. "I don't want to just be friends with you. I don't want you to have to wonder how I feel. I don't always know how to - how to just say what I'm feeling." And she was scared to put herself out there, scared to lose what little ground she'd gained, scared to lose him. "But - let me try?"
She'd spent so long being scared, and for what? For them to reach this impasse anyway?
And maybe it was hard, but maybe that was what made it worth reaching for. Because if she tried to tell him how she felt, and if he felt the same way - well, wasn't that worth it?
And if he didn't, if this all came crashing down around her head - well, it wouldn't be the first time, would it?
"I'm in love with you." The words tumbled out of her so quickly that she had to steady herself with a breath, her fingers squeezing Koa's tightly, as though willing him not to fly away. "And I should have just told you that a long time ago." But it was fucking scary to feel like this, to admit this, to hope to the gods that she wasn't about to fall flat on her face. "I want - I want you, Koa. I want there to be an us."
Green eyes and a head of gold
I'll give you two dollars if you save my soul
I'll give you two dollars if you save my soul
Sohalia
Minor powerplay allowed without permission.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
Feel free to use force/magic on Sohalia.
